Sorry for the big scare everyone. I fell in love and out back again, Michael is a wondrous person, I love him and Reba so much, i don't know what i would do without them. They both rock my world.

Ok, Here is a run down, First My first laptop got a virus, so i had to take it in to get fixed, My girlfriend said i could use her computer, so i told the computer fixing place to keep the laptop cos i didn't need it anymore. Then I found out that Reba's computer didn't work, which made me kind of mad, but oh well..hehe. However before I took the computer back i had told everyone on dA that i would be off for a bit, I had no idea that i was going to be of for nearly two months. I AM SO SORRY for that guys. Please forgive me?

Now, after Took my laptop back, I told my boyfriend Michael, not to worry because I would still stay in touch with him through the phone. In which we did for like 2 weeks. Yay for me..hehe, now here lay's the problem, Michael was starting to worry and wonder if he was going to loose me if we didn't stay in touch, so he had told me he was coming down to live with me as soon as he gets enough money, because he said, "i love you and i don't want to miss this great once in a lifetime chance to be with a wonderful person."

Isn't he just cute, I love him, anyways, when he came here, i thought it was bogus, I didn't actually think he would come here to seem me, because really, i'm not that great of a person, in fact, i consider myself not very attractive all together. but eh, what am i to do, my love is here now, and he always tells me i'm beautiful.

Yes people, he makes me cry a lot too, I've never had someone so special, or at least had someone tell me all these things to boost my confidence, well Reba does too, but it's different when a boy says it.

so anyhow, we've had our tiffs, arguments and such, only because of me, i still think I'm not all that attractive and I do get jealous because of it, we've never had a physical fight, and i hope not to because he's so sweet and i don't want to hurt him that way, he's sleeping now on my bed..hes so cute, I love him.

Josh Hampton, I'm sorry that i never put you in my journal entry, so here you are, you made it possible that Reba has such an open mind about our whole situation, and i love you for that bud. Your friendship is truly honored. Josh, you did, make me laugh and cry, and feel great too, but i promised you that we would go and visit you when we had enough money, and we are still struggling with bills and such, rent..you know the jist..lol, but I'm holding to my promise and we will go and visit you, you just need to keep out of trouble till then, which I can see no problem with.

I noticed in all the chat areas I was a mod for, I'm not, and i would like to personally thank everyone who was the room operator for demoting me, i think that was the reason i was starting to hate coming on to the chat here, I suppose i can go and have fun now in the rooms again like i once did, thank you guys again. you all rock.

now, my personal life, No one ever noticed me, and now i have two unique loves, Reba who is my flower whom i need to start supporting and helping her gain her strength back, she really needs it now these days, and Michael, who needs my guidance from time to time, still he needs help with some of life's aspects and i'm willing to show him the way i have learned, through Love and hope. slowly they are both understanding my will power and trust me, I'm not ever walking peacefully through the garden anymore, instead I'm treading on lava.

anyways, I'll try to keep everyone posted as much as i can, please i need feed back, and i'll have Michaels new photos up soon..hehe, you can see him from a different angle....mine!!